Man.. I'm going nuts. I about exploded at some friends last night when I was closing up Steamers. I just can't take this anymore. I need an extended break from life and I'm ready to just go out and buy an airline ticket to anywhere and leave.

I just can't believe that it's taken me this long to feel this way. To REALLY and truly feel so upset with Utah and everything in it that I just need to get out. It's like my insides are trying to leave, but my skin is compressing everything to stay in this little body. Ugg.

I can't believe how depressed I am. I haven't felt this bad since I ended shit with Camel..... Not that it was that long ago.. but still. Things were looking up. And suddenly I'm filled with aprehension about my life and where I'm going in life. Utah is just like any other dead end job. You get stuck there because there isn't a way out.. But I'm looking through the cracks and trying to find one I can escape through.

I can't believe this. I really can't believe myself right now. I can't believe anything. I feel like I'm constantly exploding and coming back together again.... Ugg.

Sadfats. At least I have some things that still make me smile and happy.



My tat.

Fun stuff from Sunday night.

Mom's Wedding.

And a sad looking Byrdee with new and improved Black Hair.